Metamorphasis

I thought that this was always what it was supposed to be;
going through life, plowing through days mornin’ till night.
But just then I hadn’t realized, how much more there really is,
Or that you could find something more than just this feeling
of nothing and everything, proded down all at once.

For I had accepted the way I was told I had to be,
that’s right you won, and I listened without questioning.
Of course when it’s just too late, the show’s over,
I’ve noticed that there are a few missing souls around me-
‘Cause they must’ve figured it out, when I couldn’t see.

Now as the water runs clear, clearer than blood they say,
I can see a reflection, of the woman I want to be.
But want blown away with the wind, my crudentials aren’t adding up,
I’ve spent my whole life till now, looking directly into the sun
so now that I’ve got a glimpse of darkness, I don’t know what to do with it.